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30/12/2020

Inspirasi dari Telur yang Menetas

Suatu hari saat saya menonton salah satu video Youtube tentang anak ayam, saya membaca salah satu komentar yang menggelitik. Bunyinya kurang lebih seperti ini: "If an egg is broken by an outside force, life ends. But if it's broken by an inner force, life begins."

Sebuah telur akan berakhir kehidupannya jika dipecahkan dari luar. Namun jika dipecahkan oleh kekuatan dari dalam telur itu sendiri, kehidupan akan dimulai. Dengan kata lain, anak ayam akan bisa hidup jika dia menggunakan kekuatannya untuk memecahkan cangkangnya ketika dia masih berada di dalam cangkang telur itu dan dierami induknya. Sangat masuk akal.

Namun, apa yang terjadi pada beberapa anak ayam yang saya punya sedikit berbeda. Saat tiba waktunya sang induk ayam menyambut beberapa anaknya yang mulai keluar dari cangkangnya, saat itu pula saya perhatikan hari demi hari beberapa telur yang lain tidak segera menunjukkan keretakan tanda ada kehidupan di dalam cangkang tersebut.

Sang induk pun terlihat tidak sabar untuk segera turun dari tempat pengeramannya karena si anak-anak ayam yang sudah menetas mulai merasa butuh bergerak bebas.

Saya langsung membuat keputusan untuk mengambil lima telur yang belum menetas. Suami saya segera menyiapkan bola lampu untuk menghangatkan telur-telur itu. Kemudian saya letakkan telur-telur itu di kardus dengan diberi kain-kain dari baju bekas untuk menambah kehangatan.

Saat itu saya yakin masih ada kehidupan di dalam telur itu yang belum siap untuk keluar. Saya simpulkan seperti itu karena berat telur-telur itu yang masih normal. Jika sudah sangat ringan, biasanya memang tidak ada anak ayam di dalamnya; isinya hanya cairan.

Dan ternyata setelah dua hari dihangatkan oleh lampu dan kain, satu telur mulai terlihat retak dan terdengar suara anak ayam dari dalam cangkangnya. Kemudian disusul dengan dua telur yang lain.

Yang membuat saya heran, retakan-retakan itu seperti tidak berlanjut lagi. Seperti seakan-akan anak ayam di dalamnya sudah kehabisan tenaga untuk memecahkan cangkangnya. Dengan harap-harap cemas, saya coba untuk mengupasnya secara pelan-pelan. Saya kupas sampai tidak ada cangkang tersisa dari tubuhnya. Termasuk juga saya bukakan kulit arinya yang masih ada darahnya. Tinggal tersisa anak ayam yang masih meringkuk dan basah.

Tiga hari berturut-turut saya lakukan hal itu. Saya tidak mau melakukan hal yang sama di hari yang sama untuk ketiga telur yang sudah retak tadi karena selain tidak tega, saya kuatir jika ternyata setelah saya kupas, anak ayamnya malah tidak bisa bertahan hidup karena pecahnya cangkang bukan dari tenaga dia sendiri, melainkan dari (paksaan) saya.

Ternyata tiga anak ayam tersebut sudah menunjukkan tanda-tanda ayam yang sehat. Mereka sudah bisa makan dan minum. Masih ada dua telur lagi. Salah satu sudah menunjukkan ciri telur yang rusak (kopyor). Masih ada harapan dari satu telur terakhir.

Telur yang terakhir itulah yang benar-benar saya paksa mengupasnya. Dari satu retakan kecil di area paruh kecilnya, saya bulatkan tekad untuk mengupasnya walaupun sempat ada banyak tetesan darah dari cangkang dan kulit arinya.

Anak ayam yang terakhir saya kupas itu butuh waktu tiga hari sampai benar-benar bisa berdiri, makan, dan minum. Selama tiga hari itu, saya terus melihat perkembangannya. Saya pikir, jika ternyata sang anak ayam terakhir itu tidak bisa bertahan hidup, paling tidak dia sudah bisa merasakan keluar dari cangkangnya. 

Sampai detik ini, keempat anak ayam itu masih bisa bertahan. Tanpa induk ayam. Mereka sudah berumur sekitar dua bulan. Sementara ini, sayalah induknya 😅. Foto berikut ini saya ambil saat mereka masih berumur sekitar tiga mingguan.

Kesimpulan saya berdasarkan apa yang saya saksikan dan alami sendiri tentang petikan komentar di YouTube tersebut di atas tidak seratus persen benar. Sudah tentu pernyataan tersebut murni benar seratus persen bagi orang yang pertama kali mengungkapkan pendapat itu karena bisa jadi itu bersumber dari pengalaman dia. (Setelah saya sempatkan mencari-cari dari internet, ternyata sumber aslinya adalah dari Jim Kwik, seorang YouTuber sekaligus motivator.)

"If an egg is ready to hatch, either the shell is broken from the inside or outside, it is ready to begin its life." Kalimat itu yang sepertinya lebih pas berdasarkan apa yang telah terjadi pada beberapa anak ayam saya.

Karena ada orang yang merasa bisa hidup dan terlahir sebagai manusia berkat bantuan dan motivasi dari orang-orang di sekitarnya. Dan ada juga orang yang mempunyai kekuatan dari dalam dirinya sendiri untuk memotivasi dan menempa diri agar bisa menjadi manusia yang hidup. Hidup dengan penuh makna.

Selamat menanti datangnya 2021. Semoga selalu bisa terinspirasi dari hal sekecil apapun, sehingga bisa memberi makna dalam kehidupan.


24/12/2020

Feeling like a tree

I am aware that being a pet lover needs some patience. Feeding is one thing. Giving food to my pets has trained me to understand that they have their biological clock. If I am late in feeding them, they will be louder than usual.

Playing time is another thing. I don't need to spend longer time to play with my cats since they sleep for almost the whole day. But hanging out with my little chickens is a totally different thing. Just sitting down under a water apple tree while looking at all my chickens walking here and there near me feels like playing with them.

I often feel kind of silly when I have to sit still while the little chickens are about to come up to my shoulders and head just to rest their butts. 

Maybe they think that I am a big tree and they need my branches to sit on, avoiding the attacks from bigger chickens.

While sitting, they like to clean their own body by picking their feathers and then standing a minute to be able to shake their body, letting all their dirt and dead skin fall on to my body.

They also often peck my face, my hair, my ears, and my clothes. And I just stay quiet because I pretend to be a tree. The longer they sit on me, the bigger the possibility they poop on my clothes. And there I am, dirty and happy. 
 

21/12/2020

Memanjakan Mata

Setelah dua kali gagal mencari jalan tembus antara desa Bodag (kecamatan Kare, Madiun) dengan desa Ngranget (kecamatan Dagangan, Madiun), akhirnya hari Minggu kemarin berhasil. Buat saya yang juga berasal dari daerah pegunungan, rute Bodag-Ngranget cukup menantang.

Dengan pemandangan lereng gunung Wilis yang menyejukkan mata, perjalanan roda dua melewati Bodag hanya butuh ketangkasan melewati banyak tanjakan yg berbelok-belok. Jalan beraspal memudahkan suami saya untuk mengendarai motor. 

Ketika sudah menemukan jembatan batas desa Bodag dengan desa Ngranget, jalanan berubah drastis. Jalan berbatu menyambut kami untuk menguji kesabaran. Sudah pasti kami mudah bersabar karena suguhannya adalah hutan.

Benar-benar hari memanjakan mata. Walaupun sesekali saya sempatkan untuk memotret dengan kamera ponsel, mata saya lebih sering memilih melihat langsung daripada melihat lewat kamera. 

Ketika telah masuk peradaban manusia di desa Ngranget dengan jalan yang sudah beraspal, kami berpapasan dengan beberapa warga yang selalu menyapa walaupun mereka tidak kenal dengan kami. Sebenarnya saya memiliki teman yang tinggal di desa tersebut. Namun, misi kami hari itu adalah menjelajah, sehingga kami memutuskan untuk tidak mampir. 

Jalan beraspal di desa Ngranget yang kami lewati berakhir di hutan jati. Jalan aspal sudah habis; tinggal jalan berbatu yang menuju ke dalam hutan. Karena waktu masih belum mendekati Dhuhur, kami putuskan untuk memilih melewati jalan berbatu tersebut. Asumsi kami, jalanan itu pasti menuju desa sebelah, yang lokasinya pasti semakin mendekati kecamatan kota. 

Jelajah hutan jati tersebut sering saya lalui dengan cara turun dari boncengan motor dan saya lanjutkan dengan berlari-lari kecil karena kondisi jalan berbatu yang cukup beresiko jika saya tetap berada di boncengan. Hutan yang benar-benar sepi dari orang tetapi ramai dengan suara burung dan suara pepohonan yang diterpa angin. 

Benar-benar puas mata saya hari itu. Hari Minggu yang menyambut datangnya libur akhir tahun itu saya gunakan untuk memanjakan mata dan paru-paru. Mata yang bebas menyaksikan keindahan, dan paru-paru yang bebas menerima oksigen karena saya dan suami tidak perlu bermasker selama perjalanan melewati hutan-hutan.


01/11/2020

Trees Communicate

I am going to share a true story about a jackfruit tree. There is one backyard that belongs to my husband's family. No fence separates that backyard with the neighbors' yards. That is normal in the village, plus they have the land certificates to show the ownership of the yards.

The one jackfruit tree there has finally produced its fruit after more than ten years. The first time I saw that tree was in 2010, when I started to live in my husband's big family's house. It was already a big tree at that time. According to my husband, that jackfruit tree actually belongs to one neighbor, but that neighbor planted that tree on my husband's backyard. Whether he did that on purpose or unintentionally, my husband chose not to care. 

Rumors have it that the owner of that tree intentionally planted it on my husband's backyard so that he could manipulate the width of his own yard to become wider with the help of that jackfruit tree's existence. Still, my husband chose not to care.

Long story short, one day that neighbor's son decided to build a bamboo fence along his yard to raise some chickens and geese. Another neighbor, who happens to know about the borders of the yards surrounding, asked my husband to make sure about the right width of the yard based on the certificate before that neighbor's son built the fence.

After some discussion, the fence was finally built and that jackfruit tree was out of the fence. And it means that the width of my husband's backyard is back to normal again, with a jackfruit tree as a bonus.

A few months later something which I think is a miracle happened. Some jackfruits have started to appear on that tree. They grow normally healthy now. That tree is finally able to show that it is still all right after years of no fruit. 

Perhaps it wants to say that humans must not be greedy. If humans become greedy of God's land and nature, they won't get anything except more greed. When that tree is free from the neighbor conflict, it goes back to its nature; producing its fruits for anybody who needs.

 

28/10/2020

Why the Urge to Curse

Yesterday there was something that made me upset. One thing that needed to be done for the following week had to be delayed because of a sudden, unexpected request from the person who had the responsibility to do that. It really annoyed me. Then I cursed and cursed.😅

It actually feels good for me to curse when there is something really annoying for me, aside from the concept that I will be condemned to hell if I curse. That is my risk as a human being. However, if I don't do that, there will be something very painful in my chest. Something that I need to let go but I suppress it. It does hurt.

There are some people as old as me, or older than me, who never seem to curse when annoying things happen to them. But when they do express their anger, I will be shocked to witness their rage. They seem to hold so much anger that when it comes out, it just explodes terrifyingly. 

Those people are either still learning some emotional intelligence stuff or always suppressing their so-called negative emotions. I am not sure, but I hope other people won't feel hurt when they see their anger episodes. 

What I always want to come to mind after I curse out loud to nobody is that everything and everyone must be accepted the way they are. I don't have the right to protest or judge. I just need to let things happen naturally. Then after that, I don't have any pains in my chest anymore.

10/10/2020

How I Deal with Busy Mind

I am completely anxious whenever I have things to think in my mind. It's like forcing my brain to multitask. I myself hate multitasking. But it feels to me that I cannot control my brain when it comes to thinking about some random things.

That condition becomes worse when I suddenly get an unwanted distraction. The most annoying distraction for me is a distorted noisy sound. It gets my mind to be busier than ever.

So I need to do something to distract myself from my busy mind. Doing any activity (and clearly not holding my phone) that makes me focus on doing really helps my mind to not become busy. Things like cleaning the house, playing with my pets, and rearranging the garden help my mind.

While it feels good to do nothing because I can have a self talk, doing it too often makes my mind get busier. For me, when I do a self talk, I use my thinking to produce the language in my brain and to let my mind wander. 

It's true that when people talk to themselves, they actually introspect. But when it's done too frequently, what happens is not introspection; it's an inner debate. That's what makes their mind busy.

To let my mind rest for a while, I stop thinking. Then I choose doing an activity. Well, yes it's definitely correct that my mind is actually working when I do a thing. But when the thing that I do needs an unbroken concentration, my mind is doing okay. It is not busy, and stress-free.



09/10/2020

Be in Awe

I don't know whether you often feel awed when looking at things or people. Maybe you'll be amazed at knowing how fast the internet connection you have. Or maybe you are in awe whenever you see a sexy lady or a hot guy. You will probably think that your intelligent friend is so awesome.

Regardless of whether that thing or person can annoy you sometime, let's never forget that the moment you are in awe because of them, you will unavoidingly feel small. Just think about how obviously smart those people who can make a good system for the internet to work very quickly. And if you think about how fortunate an individual is to have that sexy lady or hot guy as the partner. And if you think about that intelligent friend's proud feeling everytime he/she can show their intelligence. Compared with your life, the worst case scenario is you will even feel inferior.

Then, let's minimize that feeling of inferiority by just being in awe at nature and the universe. You are so welcome to open your mouth wide, feeling awed, when looking at the sky at night, full of stars. You can be free to feel insignificant when looking at flocks of hundreds of birds, flying up the air, with their good navigation skills to never hit others inspite of their speedy flying. Your being in awe because of those will make you become kinder, humbler, and more generous.

If you often exercise yourself to be in awe at nature and the universe, you will, no doubt, feel thankful to be able to witness everything, including witnessing those which at first made you feel inferior and smaller. You won't be able to stop thanking and being amazed at how great the Creator has made all of those.


30/09/2020

Never Easy

Sometimes in this life, we feel that a small thing to do is not as easy as it seems. Take for example, wearing a mask. It looks very easy. You just need to wear that onto the areas of nose and mouth.

What makes it difficult?

Number one is your worries. You worry about having some difficulties in breathing. You worry about your being unable to show your sweet smile. You worry about your listeners' inability to read your mouth.

Number two is the never ending regulation change from the authority about wearing the mask. The first time the regulation showed up, a specific kind of mask had to be worn; not just some random type of mask that you could find anywhere. Then not long after that, the regulation changed; it was okay to wear any kind as long as you still wore a mask. The latest change of that effing regulation is about wearing a mask of minimum two layers.

Is this some kind of the authority's joke? Why are they trying to make an easy thing feel difficult?

09/09/2020

How I Minimize Exhaustion from Teaching Online

I assume most people, especially those who have just started teaching virtually, experience exhaustion because of the virtual exposure, whether it's from online meetings or from too many social media acitivities.

I have heard from other teachers that they even have to see an oculist because of their too much exposure to the screen. They suffer from dry eyes and blurry vision. I don't have any ideas about when this covid19 crisis ends, but if this online education continues, the eyesight problem will be worse and worse.

I am talking nonsense if I say that virtual teaching is no big deal for me. As a middle-aged woman, eye-related problems must always happen. Those problems get worse with those virtual exposures. Sitting for some hours while looking at the screen and listening to the students' voice which is often unclear because of the internet reception makes my body extremely exhausted.

However, I am not the type of person who is so glued to the screen when dealing with social media activities. That saves my eyes from the screen. 

When preparing some lessons to teach, I make some notes or reminders about what to create when working on some slides. That saves me from looking at the monitor fo too long.

Then when it comes to Google Meet session with students, I still become the real me, who is okay to laugh outloud with them when there is something funny, who always wants to really listen to what they want to say, and who will always be ready to be their friend to practice. In that way, Google Meet session feels just like the real, face to face meeting.

06/09/2020

The Priceless Pleasure

Have you ever been in a situation where you feel so overwhelmed by your being a human as a total whole? It's not as noble as doing great for humanity. It's just doing something very trivial. But this trivial thing you are doing makes you feel and realize how great it is to be a human.

One person that I know once said to me about her being in ecstasy when she could get good stuff from her favorite online shop with a reasonable price. Another person I know once also told me that he could feel very satisfied if he could capture a moment with his camera.

That moment when you get that feeling, I am not exaggerating if I say that you feel as if an umbrella were opening up in your heart. Or you could feel as if a big flower were blooming gradually inside your heart. I really hope you have felt that even if it is only once in your lifetime. What a joyful life you have if you often experience that feeling when you do random, trivial things. What a priceless pleasure you get.

I have found one priceless pleasure from doing one trivial thing. When I water the front yard and the back yard of my house, there is always an indescribable  sensation coming to my chest everytime the water splashes the leaves and the grasses. It feels like those trees and grasses are thankful to the water spraying them. And that leads my heart to smile, as if a big flower were blooming inside.

01/09/2020

Why Good People Leave

 I am writing this because a good friend of mine, who is also a caring teacher for his students, has decided to end his career at teaching. Deciding to start a new business instead of continuing his teaching career elsewhere is a brave thing. I don't even have that gut. However, with that decision he has made and with his talent he possesses, I am definitely and positively sure that he is going to be able to succeed.

What has got me thinking is about his love and dedication to teach and care about his students. He is so passionate about that. What on earth made him let go of that passion?

Perhaps, good teachers leave the educational institution where they teach because of one very strong principle. They are not leaving the organization. They are not purely letting go of their passion to teach. They are just leaving some certain individuals whose way of thinking is not in line with their way of thinking. Their pure intention in educating students is interfered with other, non-educational intentions. 

That's all I am saying. Any reasons he has, I am still sad that he's resigned.

06/08/2020

Mengapa Saya Senang Mengajar



Wearnes Education Center. Sudah selama 18 tahun 6 bulan saya mengajar di lembaga pendidikan tersebut. Dan saat ini, lembaga tempat saya mengajar ini sudah berumur 26 tahun. Beberapa teman saya heran mengapa saya bisa bertahan lama mengajar di sini. 

Semua orang yang berprofesi apapun pasti punya alasan ekonomi dan alasan pribadi. Saya pun seperti itu.

Namun, di balik semua alasan itu, saya akui memang saya sangat menyukai mengajar di sini. Setiap tahun, mahasiswa akan selalu berganti, karena pendidikannya berupa program profesi satu tahun.

Dan setiap tahun pula, saya menikmati momen-momen ketika saya berinteraksi dengan mereka, berbagi cerita dengan mereka, mendengarkan suara mereka, dan bersabar dengan motivasi mereka ketika proses belajar mengajar berjalan. 

Betapa membahagiakan buat saya ketika saya tahu ada alumni yang sukses berkarir ataupun berbisnis. Dan betapa membahagiakan juga buat saya ketika ada alumni yang sudah lulus bertahun-tahun yang lalu, yang masih mau menyapa dan mengingat nama saya, dan saya pun bisa mengingat nama alumni itu.

Jika ada yang bilang bahwa alumni dari lembaga tempat saya mengajar ini mempunyai kemampuan profesional yang handal, saya pasti akan bangga. Jika ada juga alumni yang mau merekomendasikan kepada orang lain agar belajar di lembaga ini, saya pun pasti akan sangat merasa tersentuh. 

Saya bukan termasuk bagian yang bertugas marketing di lembaga ini. Tetapi dengan kecintaan saya mengajar dan mendidik di sini, saya berharap mahasiswa mendapatkan manfaat yang berlimpah untuk hidup dan penghidupannya nanti. Itu adalah berkah bagi saya. Dan jika ternyata itu mampu mendatangkan lebih banyak mahasiswa baru di tahun-tahun berikutnya, saya hanya bisa berucap Alhamdulillah.

30/07/2020

Doing Things Worth Doing

Why are you doing what you are doing? Is it because of your routines, your interest, or is it because somebody else forces you to do it? Regardless of the sources of the cause, you may be paying attention to the inputs that you give in doing that. You may also be paying attention to the outputs that you get from doing that.

Let me just put it in a simple way. Your interest is playing games online. Some inputs must be given in order that you can play: a lot of time to play, your energy and emotion when playing, data and battery consumptions for the phone or computer, a nice setting for you to play, 'moment' of not communicating with real people in real life, and so on. 

After you finish playing, you get the outputs: satisfaction with exhaustion, and maybe some points or scores for the game. You can name other types of outputs that you can get from playing game. 

And the big question is: From doing that, are the outputs worth the effort in giving the inputs? If you say yes, you can just continue doing that. However, from my point of view, I don't think that the outputs are worth it.

There are so many other examples that I have in mind about this. But one thing for sure, if you are certain that what you do is worth doing, whether it is compulsory or for leisure time, make sure that it requires a lot of good inputs and you must believe that the outputs are worth it.

25/07/2020

Why I delete my social media accounts

I often laugh when I know some persons' reaction after I say I don't have an Instagram account, or Facebook, or Twitter. They must have thought that I don't know what to do if I want to have those accounts. Anyway, it's fun to let them think that I am stupid about that.😁

Years ago when I decided to create those accounts for me, I just followed my instinct as a human who has desires. But after a few years of using them, I realized about my stupidity of 'selling' my personal life through those media. And then one by one, I deleted Facebook, Instagram, and Twitter accounts that I have. (I am still using Youtube account for my educational reasons and Linkedin, just in case somebody asks me professionally😅, though I totally seldom open it.) 

I deleted those 3 accounts because of one simple reason that I think some people will agree on; the notifications. Why should I be notified about others' personal life? I don't need that. 

Besides, I appreciate my real life with real people and animals and plants. Dealing with those virtually feels empty for me. If it's for occasional entertainment, it's still acceptable. But when it becomes daily consumption, it's a big problem for me. It will become addiction. So I choose to stop.

You don't need to follow what I have done to my social media accounts. You know what you have to do with those of yours. 

And you don't have to force me or someone else to have social media accounts and to do like what you do for your accounts. Everybody has their own way of regulating their personal life through the use of those media platforms. 

If I have a plan of selling stuff, the real product or service, then choosing to have one account with the name of the brand is logically acceptable.

21/07/2020

Why I choose to do one thing against my will

I assume most people will feel hurt when they are forced to do things that they don't want to do. Like, for example, when I force my friend to drink black coffee because for me it gives me some good effects for my body and my mood. 

Though I know that my friend hates coffee, I still force her to drink it. Then, as a result, she gets worse effects from that coffee. 

How cruel I am if I do that to my friend. So, I try to understand that there are people that still don't have empathy by forcing others to do things against those others' will. 

Because updating statuses on my social media (Whatsapp is my only thing😅), is not my cup of tea, I choose not to do it for my peace of mind. However, I was finally forced to do it after some unsuccessful attempts. And the after-effect was a whole night attack of headache. 

I finally chose to do that because of one simple thing. I am an adult, and I don't have to waste my energy arguing about this. It's understandable for me that there are those kinds of people who never even try to exercise their empathy.

And, if, later on, those kinds of forcing violate my personal life and my rights as a human, a bigger decision is needed. That decision is a sacrifice to avoid a lot more sufferings if I am controlled by others. Let me just be controlled by God and myself.

20/07/2020

Are you aware of your own self?

When you are walking under the sunlight, whether in the morning, at noon, or in the afternoon, do you also check your shadow? That dark figure resulted from your body because of the sunlight? It will be very tall in the morning or afternoon, but very short or small or no shadow at noon.

You don't have to agree with my way of thinking, but don't you ever think about your shadow in the daylight? When it's getting taller, don't you ever realize that that time is when you strive for your best? Doing your job, exercising your body, competing at sport, acquiring knowledge at schools, et cetera.

My point is about maximizing that dark shadow in the daylight. That dark, tall figure of your shadow is telling you that you need to maximize your dark side to do good things for your own good.

When it's at noon, or when your shadow is getting smaller, that's the best time for you to rest for a while; doing your prayer, relaxing, restructuring your physical energy. That small dark figure is telling you to focus on your body. 


Knowing that fact about you in the daylight, I am not exaggerating if I say that any human beings must be able to control their power and their own self. You, as human beings, know exactly what to do to manage yourself consciously.

Knowing the size of your dark side from that shadow, you need to know that you have to regulate your dark side in the daylight. So, if you see a person being uncontrollably angry, you should understand that he is not aware of how to regulate his emotional dark side.

I am not saying that in the daylight you are not becoming the true you, but you should have the awareness of becoming the whole you, with the acceptance of your own shadow.

At night, or from dusk till dawn, when there's no light surrounding you, no shadow of yours is shown. For me, this is the most critical time to acknowledge that your shadow is totally hidden. Then what should you do? Are you going to let that unknown dark side of yours consume you? Then later on, when you are totally possessed by your evil dark side, you will become the real you that you've never ever wanted. Do you want that? I don't think so.

Then why not doing similar things like what you do at noon; praying, relaxing, resting, reenergizing your body? It will feel even better when you are able to wake up at dawn, especially when everybody else is still unawake. 

You will fall in love with the quietness of the dawn. The regularity of your listening to that quietness will result in your getting peace of mind, and, of course, healthier body. Then you will become more aware of your own self, day and night.



15/07/2020

Come and Go

If you come to me easily
Then you are free to be gone
Never bother to feel guilty
No heart you've ever won

But have you ever wondered
About all you've done 
To make me feel flattered
And think that I'm the real one

Just go away for good
If you are merely passing by
Please stay forever if you could
And never say good bye

Let's never forget
Nothing in life we should regret
You'll be forever in my heart
Our souls won't ever be apart

11/07/2020

Everyone Poops

We live to expect to be clean. We are socially required to look spotlessly presentable. We are expected to make no mistakes so that we are not ashamed and the society won't underestimate us.

But aren't we tired to strive for perfection? There is an old saying: To err is human. We are human beings. We make mistakes. Besides, we poop.

I am not discussing something disgusting. It is very humane to poop. We need to cleanse our body, and one way is to poop. We understand that we are regularly dirty by pooping. But by doing that bodily instinctive thing, we are back to be fine again. 

Then what should we do with that poop? Well, mother nature will handle that. She will take care of that. She is far smarter than the smartest person in the world, whether he is Albert Einstein or Nikola Tesla.

So, please understand that people make mistakes. In that way, they will be better. And what should we do with our mistakes that we make? Well, let life take care of that because life is always teaching us a lesson, including from our mistakes.

25/06/2020

Pahami, Maklumi

Mengobrol memang menarik buat sebagian orang. Mereka merasa mendapatkan semangat ketika bisa mengobrol dan bercerita banyak hal. Mereka semakin bersemangat ketika orang yang mendengarkan obrolannya mau memperhatikan isi obrolannya.

Namun ada kalanya orang akan merasa muak apabila yang menjadi tema obrolan adalah tema yang ringan dan obrolannya berdurasi lumayan lama. Bayangkan saja semisal yang diobrolkan adalah seputar kuliner ataupun rutinitas harian. Apabila tema tersebut diobrolkan dalam waktu yang pendek, mungkin masih terdengar menarik.

Bayangkan pula seandainya apa yang diobrolkan adalah seputar kesuksesan mereka dalam meraih apapun yang diinginkan di hidupnya. Mereka terus bercerita tanpa peduli apa yang ada di benak pendengar. Bisa jadi pendengar memang terinspirasi. Tapi bisa jadi juga pendengar merasa 'dipameri' oleh pembicara.

Andai saja obrolan lebih bermakna, pasti pendengar bisa terbawa suasana. Jika pembicara mempunyai perasaan yang lebih peka, pasti ada cara dari mereka untuk mencari makna dari tema-tema obrolan sederhana. Bukan hanya sekedar ingin didengarkan.

Namun, karena saat ini semakin banyak orang yang ingin didengar, ingin diperhatikan, dan ingin merasa istimewa, mari kita sediakan dua telinga kita untuk mendengarkan mereka. Mari ikhlaskan dua mata kita untuk menyaksikan tingkah mereka. Pahami mereka, maklumi mereka. Dan, demi ketenangan hidup kita, mari kita telaah sendiri apa yang bisa kita contoh dan yang tidak perlu kita contoh dari mereka.






15/06/2020

While You Can

What if
Giving creates suspicion
Laughter means a crime
Loving is forbidden

That's when the time has come
For you to regret
The chance won't come no more
It's all been set

Give anything that soothes you
Laugh with the ones you love
Love with expecting no return
While you can

Sing outloud from your heart
Dance like there's nobody looking
Get insane and be joyful
While you can

06/06/2020

Mengapa Webinar Gratis itu Menarik

Gambar ini adalah iklan acara webinar yang pasti menarik. Menarik karena pembicaranya anak-anak muda yang sukses merintis karirnya. 
 

Zoom sedang tren dan digemari, mengalahkan pamor Whatsapp video call dan Google Meet. 

Saya pun juga mendapatkan "berkah" atas ketenaran Zoom. Sudah lebih dari 6 kali ada kewajiban mengikuti Zoom Webinar yang gratis yang rata-rata berdurasi 3 jam. Lumayan untuk menambah pengetahuan dan kesabaran.

Kata "gratis" pastilah menarik untuk acara webinar seperti di atas walaupun sebenarnya tidak benar-benar gratis (ada pengeluaran untuk biaya kuota internet dan daya listrik untuk baterai smartphone). 

Namun, jika dibandingkan ketika peserta harus datang ke tempat seminar dengan berpenampilan super rapi, webinar membuat peserta leluasa duduk santai di rumah sambil menatap layar smartphone ditemani secangkir kopi, atau sambil menyelesaikan pekerjaan di rumah dengan tetap mendengarkan apa yang disampaikan pembicara.

Selain itu, peserta bisa leluasa menyerap apa yang disampaikan pembicara dan mempelajari bagaimana pembicara itu menyampaikan materinya. Bagi peserta yang punya tipikal tidak gampang dipengaruhi oleh motivasi dari luar, paling tidak ada kesempatan buat peserta untuk belajar bagaimana menyampaikan ide kepada orang banyak. Silakan klik link ini jika ingin mengetahui pendapat saya tentang motivator: https://retnothetruthoflife.blogspot.com/search?q=seminar

Bagi yang sudah biasa mengikuti webinar, pasti tahu apa yang harus dipersiapkan. Bagi yang baru mau pertama kali ikut, pastikan smartphone dalam kondisi sehat (baterai penuh, memori memadai, dan kuota internet dicadangkan 600-900mb untuk webinar itu). 

Pastikan juga kondisi tubuh sudah segar seperti layaknya mau menjadi peserta seminar di dunia nyata (sudah mandi, sarapan, memakai pakaian yang pantas agar memunculkan aura positif dari diri sendiri walaupun peserta webinar tidak akan terlihat oleh pembicara ataupun peserta yang lain).

Jadi, webinar pasti menarik dengan catatan bahwa peserta mengikhlaskan waktu dan kuota internetnya untuk mengakses webinar tersebut. Pasrahkan pada paket data internet dan sinyal smartphone saja. Selamat menikmati dan menimba ilmu dari webinar.


04/06/2020

Lessons from Caterpillars

I apologize if some of you will be disgusted when looking at the pictures.

For me, those are beauty. If you are brave enough to look closely at the cute faces of those caterpillars, there is the beauty.

Just in case you are not inspired by their life,  let me elaborate it based on my personal understanding. Who knows right after you finish reading this, you will start to not get rid of caterpillars and admire them more.

  1. A caterpillar starts its life alone, only being able to crawl on leaves. It consumes those leaves as nutrition for its body. It doesn't get any help from other caterpillars to find food though perhaps it will meet them on its way. That nutritious consumption is to prepare for the next phase.
  2. The inspiringly amazing phase is when a caterpillar forms a cocoon or chrysalis and it hangs upside down on a leaf. It needs solitude. It's like a meditative state. It doesn't need any interference from other creatures to complete this process. It focuses on itself to grow to awe the world.
  3. Then after some days in the cocoon, it is ready to come out to be a beautifully awesome butterfly, a short-lived creature, but being able to spread happiness to the world with its amazing color.
In conclusion, we human can do that, too. Let us consume what is good for us mentally and physically. 

Then, let us spend more of our time to have a really qualified solitude. That is an excellent time to contemplate our substance as a human being. 

The outcome of our solitude will reflect upon how we face the world. We will bring happiness with our kindness. Toxic persons will not come near us. We don't need validation and admiration from others. We are just being us.

30/05/2020

Fear Not

Everytime you face me
Why can't you just feel free
Everytime I come to your vessel
Why can't you tackle

Never fear
I am a living thing and you are too
It's so crystal clear
I fight and so do you

Have some dignity
Show your class
Show no cowardice quality
So I shall pass

Will you be a hostile host for me
I need you to be carefree
Show how you've fought
Will you be able to fear not

(spoken by a virus😊)

27/05/2020

Balon Terbang

Lebaran hari kedua masih saya manfaatkan di rumah saja. Seperti biasa, saya menikmati langit pagi. Tentunya sambil melihat burung-burung beterbangan. 

Ada sesuatu di langit yang membuat mata saya lama memfokuskan pandangan. Saya memaklumi diri saya sendiri dengan kemampuan mata saya yang sudah berumur separuh baya😁. Ada beberapa titik putih yang terlihat.

Titik-titik putih itu saya pikir adalah bintang yang sangat kuat cahayanya. Sampai pagi cerah pun masih mampu mengeluarkan sinarnya.

Setelah saya beritahu suami saya bahwa masih ada cahaya bintang di pagi yang cerah, dia tertawa. Katanya dia juga melihat hal yang sama di pagi sebelumnya. Dia pikir itu bintang. Ternyata itu adalah balon terbang berwarna putih😂.

Ada beberapa daerah di kota tempat saya tinggal yang mempunyai budaya melepas balon pada saat hari raya Idul Fitri. Walaupun ada kabar bahwa resikonya adalah mengganggu penerbangan pesawat, beberapa daerah masih saja melepaskan balon ke udara.

Semoga saja kecanggihan teknologi navigasi penerbangan Indonesia bisa mendeteksi adanya balon terbang itu sehingga bisa meminimalkan kecelakaan pesawat terbang. 

Semoga juga balon udara yang berisi gas itu juga tidak tersangkut di kabel listrik agar tidak mengakibatkan kebakaran.

Semoga pula burung-burung yang sedang beterbangan tidak kebingungan ketika melihat balon-balon itu. Saya yakin burung-burung itu memiliki insting navigasi yang hebat agar tidak perlu menabrak balon-balon tersebut.


26/05/2020

The Voice Calling

Will it matter 
If you open your heart
Will you be able to ponder
The vastness of where our lives start

When lives bring you joy
What a tremendous happiness
Be like a little boy
With lots of toys and craziness

But when lives bring you down
Do you hear the voices calling
Calling from beneath the ground
Can you hear it summoning

Listen to it
Listen to the voice
It may be a fate
It's never a noise
Aren't you feeling great
With your own pure heart's voice

23/05/2020

Eid Mubarak 2020

Tomorrow morning is the day of Eid Mubarak. At this moment, my husband and I are sitting in the frontyard of our house with the lights intentionally out, enjoying the dark sky with full of stars (while I am typing for this blog of course).

Being unable to visit my mom in the other town because of this covid19 thing has made me realize that I need to remind myself that my mom is a strong woman. She is fine with this condition that her daughters cannot go back home. Thanks to covid19 for this chance of admiring the dark sky full of stars and the hopes and prayers for my mom to always be tough alone at home.

At this moment, too, I can still hear the busy traffic. There are very many vehicles passing by. I guess those people just want to know the situation of the town before the d-day of Eid Mubarak, regardless of the danger of covid19 infection. They probably can't stand staying peacefully at home, listening to the takbir from the mosques. 

What if the existence of covid19 is intended to let human beings contemplate the substance of life? To stay home means to be close with all the family members, to know them deeper, to love them more, to be together with them in the backyard or the frontyard to admire the universe, and to really listen to the takbir that can touch the soul.

Let's hope to see the next Ramadan and happy Eid Mubarak for everybody who is reading this.

Let me just continue admiring the dark sky full of stars tonight.


20/05/2020

Madiun Bangkit

Dua hari yang lalu, tepatnya hari Senin pagi, saya berhasil mengumpulkan tekad untuk membeli jagung pakan ayam di pasar besar kota. Stok jagung yang ada di rumah sudah habis, dan ayam-ayam terlanjur memilih jagung sebagai makanan favoritnya. 

Sebenarnya rencana untuk ke pasar besar sudah ada dari beberapa minggu yang lalu. Namun karena adanya covid19, rumah adalah tempat ternyaman. Setelah saya mengetahui sendiri ternyata ayam-ayam sangat menyukai jagung, saya putuskan untuk segera membeli ke pasar besar.

Betapa terkejutnya saya ketika saya menuju ke pasar besar. Sepanjang perjalanan, terlihat  bank-bank yang penuh dengan pengunjung. Terlihat juga antrian di beberapa kantor pos. Jalan menuju ke pasar besar pun padat. Kemacetan sempat terjadi. Sempat terbersit di benak saya untuk putar balik saja, dan membatalkan niat ke pasar. 

Namun, karena putar balik pun juga susah gara-gara terlalu padatnya lalu lintas, saya sabarkan diri untuk melanjutkan perjalanan ke pasar. 

Setelah sampai di area parkir motor yang sudah penuh sesak dengan banyak motor, saya langsung menuju kios penjual jagung yang tidak terlalu jauh dari tempat parkir. Saya sempat terpana dengan banyaknya orang di pasar. Di luar dugaan, pasar tersebut ternyata sangat ramai walaupun covid19 melanda.

Saya urungkan niat untuk membeli benda-benda selain jagung. Setelah jagung sudah saya dapatkan, saya mengambil motor dengan diiringi tatapan penuh heran dari tukang parkir. Dia pasti takjub melihat barang belanjaan saya yang cuma jagung. Dia sepertinya tidak memahami perasaan saya yang putus asa melihat keramaian pasar.

Madiun benar-benar bangkit. Bangkit menyambut Hari Raya Idul Fitri. Bangkit menyemarakkan perekonomian. Bangkit meramaikan kota yang seharusnya sepi agar covid19 tidak semakin merajalela. Kebangkitan tersebut entah membuat mereka lengah sehingga terpapar covid19, ataukah membuat covid19 jengah menyaksikan ulah manusia itu. Entahlah.

17/05/2020

Smile with Our Eyes

Who doesn't love to look at a beautiful, genuine smile? It warms our heart. So, if we want to warm others' heart, why not giving our bestest, most sincere smile? 

However, with our new habit of wearing a mask to protect from covid19, we are hiding that precious thing of ours. We are not able to show that our lips are really smiling.

If we cannot smile with our lips because of wearing a mask, we can still smile with our eyes, or smize. To show that we smize, or that we smile with our eyes, we just need to produce real smiling lips behind the mask. I guess everybody has the ability to produce a genuine smile. Then it is still easy to smize.

When we really master the art of smizing, we don't need our lips to produce a smile. We just need to use the area of our eyes. But it is not that easy. It needs a lot of practice. I am myself still working on it.

It will not be that difficult to smize when we assume that we are looking at our lovely pets or someone we love. Just imagine we are in that situation. Then when our lips are about to produce a smile, just hold it, and let our eyes continue the smile. Voila! We are smizing.

Be happy when smizing.

Di Balik Masker

Masker sedang mendunia. Berkat korona, usaha tekstil kecil-kecilan menjadi menggeliat untuk memproduksi masker. Orang-orang yang hilir mudik pun memperlihatkan masker beraneka warna yang mereka pakai. Pemakaian masker yang saat ini dipaksa untuk menjadi kebiasaan saya rasakan sebagai 'tantangan'.

Ada dua hal yang saya anggap sebagai tantangan dari pemakaian masker. Pertama, saya berjuang keras bernafas dari balik masker. Saya merasakan susahnya bernafas ketika saya memakai masker. Apalagi ketika saya sedang berbicara. Saya tersiksa dengan karbondioksida saya sendiri yang saya telan lagi.

Ketika saya diam, bernafas masih bisa lumayan lancar asalkan saya berkonsentrasi. Saya memaklumi diri sendiri karena belum terbiasa. Bernafas bisa agak menjadi lancar jika saya berkendara motor karena ada hembusan angin yang menerpa wajah. 

Hal berikutnya yang saya anggap sebagai tantangan jika pemakaian masker ini akan berlangsung terus menerus adalah menghilangnya satu ekspresi wajah orang yang menjadi favorit saya, yaitu senyum. Saya pasti akan selalu merindukan senyum orang-orang. Karena masker, saya terpaksa hanya fokus melihat area mata lawan bicara saya. 

Pada akhirnya, berkat pemakaian masker, kita mungkin saja bisa menjadi orang yang handal dalam bernafas meskipun akses udara untuk masuk hidung akan terhalang oleh kain. Kita juga bisa menjadi handal dalam membaca sorot mata orang. Kita jadi bisa membedakan mata mana yang bisa tersenyum tulus, mata mana yang tersenyum penuh kepalsuan, mata mana yang serius memperhatikan, dan mata mana yang benar-benar peduli dengan sekitarnya.

Semoga berhasil terbiasa dengan pemakaian masker.



06/05/2020

Following the Crowd is Not a Must

Have you ever wondered why you do what you are doing now? Have you ever thought about why you choose your choice? Do you think that it is from the real you or do you just follow what the society tells you to do or choose?

As a normal woman, for example, she must follow the norm, or the rule enforced by society. She must be able to cook, to master the femininely graceful walk, to dress nicely, and the other things related to feminity.

However, if she doesn't do what the society tells her to do, is she committing a crime? Let's say that she doesn't enjoy cooking. If she forces herself to enjoy cooking because of the norm, she must suffer emotionally. The enjoyment she finds from gardening, for example, will be considered not normal by the society.

A normal boy is usually asked by society to play outside for fun and for sport. He must also know how to hang out with other boys and talk about boys' stuff. If he, in fact, loves dancing, the society will consider him not normal. If he looks awkward when he is with some friends talking about hobbies, the society will think that there is something mentally wrong with him.

When it comes to living life fully, there is no obligation that we follow the crowd. It is still okay if you want to follow the crowd if you know what you are doing. When you decide to not follow the crowd, as long as you don't hurt others and you don't care that others judge you, I think there is nothing wrong with you.

For me, simply put, when I choose to not follow the crowd, I don't have any intention to be rebellious.  I am just feeling certain that I know what I do and I am willing to take any risk for that. I am sure I have the power from inside of me to live my life fully and to choose not to follow the mainstream.

Let me quote what Patrick Star says in Spongebob Squarepants series: "Sometimes we have to go deep inside ourselves to solve our problems." The crowd, or the mainstream, doesn't have any idea about what we need in our life. If we follow what the majority does, the result is ordinary. Do we want to get extraordinary result? Then follow what our heart tells us to do.


02/05/2020

Covid19 Memaksa Terjadinya Revolusi Pendidikan (Bagian Terakhir)

Betapa indahnya seandainya di pendidikan dasar dan menengah pertama (SD dan SLTP), siswa tidak dibebani banyak mata pelajaran. Tidak juga diadakan ujian yang ujung-ujungnya hanya membuat siswa berkompetisi karena label nilai yang mereka peroleh. Jiwa kompetisi bisa dimunculkan hanya khusus ketika mereka bertanding di olahraga.

Mata pelajaran yang diberikan untuk siswa SD harus berkaitan dengan pembentukan karakter dan pola berpikir analitis yang sederhana. Mereka harus dibentuk untuk menjadi anak yang sopan, berempati, dan berani menyampaikan secara lisan tentang apa yang menjadi pendapatnya ataupun apa yang dia ingin tanyakan. Untuk pembentukan pola berpikir analitis, matematika dasar cocok untuk diajarkan. Materi hitung menghitung ini harus relevan dengan kejadian sehari-hari yang siswa alami di sekolah dan di rumah.

Di tingkat SLTP, apa yang diperoleh di pendidikan dasar hanya perlu dimantapkan dan dimatangkan. Perlu juga diberi pemahaman tentang esensi mereka sebagai manusia. Sekali lagi, tidak perlu lagi terjadi transfer pengetahuan karena pengetahuan bisa mereka dapatkan dari buku atau internet jika mereka berminat. Yang perlu hanyalah transfer ilmu menjalani kehidupan.

Di tingkat SD dan SLTP ini, negara wajib mengatur dan menyamakannya untuk seluruh Indonesia. Kolaborasi yang manis harus terjadi antara guru dan orang tua siswa dalam mendidik. Misalnya, siswa dididik oleh guru di sekolah selama maksimal 4 jam. Di rumah, orang tua wajib mendidik selama 2 jam khusus untuk membentuk karakternya. Durasi 2 jam di rumah itu juga sesekali dipantau oleh guru.

Di tingkat menengah atas dan perguruan tinggi, negara tidak perlu terlalu mengatur dan membatasi gerak lembaga pendidikan di dua tingkat itu. Yang perlu dipahamkan di tahun pertama tingkat menengah atas (SLTA) tersebut adalah bahwa siswa sudah punya arahan tentang cara melanjutkan penghidupannya berdasarkan minat yang dipilih. Jika siswa nantinya berminat mencari nafkah di bidang teknologi, mereka bisa memilih SLTA atau perguruan tinggi rumpun teknologi. Atau rumpun ilmu yang lain yang mereka minati dan bisa menjadi lahan untuk mencari nafkah. Jadi sebenarnya di tingkat SLTA dan di atasnya, yang lebih diasah adalah ketrampilannya.

Apa yang saya sudah sampaikan adalah efek dari masa krisis wabah ini. Saya hanyalah seorang guru Bahasa Inggris yang suatu saat nanti profesi ini akan tergerus hilang karena modernisasi teknologi. Namun saya yakin saya tetap bisa mendidik, karena setiap orang punya kemampuan untuk mendidik.

Semoga ada perbaikan pendidikan di Indonesia.


Covid19 Memaksa Terjadinya Revolusi Pendidikan (Bagian 2)

Siapkah negara mendanai keperluan internet teknologi 5g, yang kabarnya mempunyai kecepatan luar biasa, tapi juga ada desas-desus akan adanya resiko tinggi terhadap makhluk hidup jika teknologi ini dipakai? Jika siap dengan dana dan resiko yang ditanggung, pendidikan versi the new normal yang sangat berbasis teknologi internet pasti bisa diterapkan.

Akan tetapi, dengan tidak bermaksud bersikap apatis, saya berpikir realistis. Melihat kondisi kota saya saja, Madiun, banyak daerah yang saya rasa masih mengalami kesulitan mendapatkan jangkauan internet stabil. Bagaimana nasib siswa yang tinggal di daerah itu jika harus ada pelajaran secara online dari gurunya?

Ironisnya, negara semakin gencar mengunggulkan penggunaan aplikasi-aplikasi berbasis internet untuk berbagai layanan, termasuk layanan pendidikan. Negara seakan-akan lupa bahwa ada banyak warganya yang sangat awam tentang internet.  Apakah mereka yang awam itu akan dipaksa oleh negara agar paham internet? Tegakah negara melakukan itu di saat krisis wabah tengah melanda sementara kasus kehilangan pekerjaan dan kesulitan pangan terus menerus terjadi?

Mengapa negara tidak memilih melakukan perubahan radikal untuk bidang pendidikan? Harus ada perubahan secara fundamental di sistem pendidikan di negara ini. Perubahan itu tidak harus muluk-muluk. Justru konsep yang sederhana yang seharusnya bisa mengena ke semua lapisan.

Ada banyak hal yang berkecamuk di benak saya tentang konsep pendidikan yang sederhana ini.

Model pendidikan dan pengajaran yang diterapkan sebelum internet merajalela adalah seperti layaknya transfer ilmu dari guru ke siswa. Model itu merupakan konsep yang sederhana versi masa lalu.

Konsep yang sederhana versi masa kini (saat internet jaya) adalah berupa transfer ilmu dari internet ke siswa. Ini berarti bahwa siswa bisa belajar atau memperoleh pengetahuan tanpa lewat guru. Saat ini untuk memperoleh pengetahuan hanya dibutuhkan one click away. Bagi yang ingin memperoleh ilmu tanpa lewat internet, banyak buku masih beredar.

Di Bagian 3 (terakhir), akan saya paparkan apa yang ada di benak saya tentang konsep pendidikan sederhana pasca covid19, yang seandainya saja negara mau menerapkannya, banyak pihak akan berbahagia. Guru akan benar-benar berjasa, siswa akan mendapatkan kejelasan tentang arah hidupnya, dan orang tua bisa berperan penuh sebagai guru di rumah.



Covid19 Memaksa Terjadinya Revolusi Pendidikan (Bagian 1)

Berdasarkan cerita yang saya dengar dari tetangga saya yang anaknya bersekolah di sekolah dasar, saya akhirnya memahami repotnya orang tua ketika mereka harus menghadapi anaknya yang terpaksa belajar di rumah akibat covid19. Tidak semua orang tua, terutama ibu, yang selalu siap sedia di rumah untuk menemani dan mengawasi anaknya belajar. Ada yang terpaksa bekerja untuk memenuhi kebutuhan hidup keluarga dan biaya sekolah anaknya. Tidak semua orang tua mampu secara finansial untuk membelikan telpon pintar untuk anaknya dan membiayai keperluan telpon pintar itu untuk keperluan paket datanya.

Bagi orang tua yang berprofesi sebagai pendidik atau guru, saya rasa itu bukan masalah besar karena mereka mempunyai pemahaman yang menyeluruh tentang konsep mendidik dan mengajar. Walaupun mereka harus membagi perhatiannya dengan murid-murid mereka yang harus belajar dari rumah, mereka mestinya tetap profesional dengan tugasnya sebagai guru.

Ditutupnya sekolah-sekolah untuk sementara karena wabah covid19 ini memang memaksa guru dan orang tua untuk berubah demi siswa. Guru dituntut untuk mahir menggunakan fasilitas teknologi untuk aplikasi pengajaran online. Orang tua dituntut untuk sabar dan pintar mengawasi anaknya di rumah ketika pelajaran online sedang berlangsung. Siswa generasi sekarang saya yakin pasti siap dituntut seperti itu, selama orang tua mendukung secara finansial dan selama negara memfasilitasinya dengan akses internet yang sangat handal.

Namun, dengan kondisi Indonesia yang berpulau-pulau, banyak pelosok, banyak desa di pegunungan, apakah negara mampu menjamin kelancaran internet demi suksesnya pengajaran online? Selain itu, dengan adanya konsep pendidikan yang selama ini selalu di sekolah, berada di dalam ruangan dengan durasi selama lebih dari setengah hari, apakah orang tua dan guru bisa menjamin bahwa siswa benar-benar siap berada di rumah selama masa wabah berlangsung? Bukannya mereka malah merasa bebas seperti keluar dari penjara? Dan akhirnya mereka memilih bermain dan bersantai, tidak memikirkan pelajaran. (Hampir setiap hari saya melihat ada layang-layang diterbangkan ataupun anak-anak yang lewat depan rumah sambil bergurau dan berteriak-teriak.)

Saya yakin wabah covid19 ini segera berakhir. Dan sekolah benar-benar hanya ditutup untuk sementara. Setelah ini, sekolah akan berfungsi normal. Entah itu berupa back to normal atau new normal. Yang jelas, negara dan pihak-pihak yang mengurusi penataan pendidikan di negara ini harus mengusahakan upaya yang maksimal jika pengajaran bermodel online akan tetap dilanjutkan, ataupun jika penggunaan internet untuk kepentingan kegiatan belajar mengajar ingin dimaksimalkan.

Saya akan melanjutkan tulisan ini pada Bagian 2, khusus untuk menyampaikan isi pikiran saya jika negara tidak bisa mengusahakan secara maksimal untuk kepentingan pendidikan versi the new normal.

Hari ini tanggal 2 Mei 2020, selamat Hari Pendidikan bagi semuanya.




01/05/2020

Why I Consider Life as a Rhythm

There are some concepts from some people, from ordinary persons to philosophers, about life. Some say that life is a journey. Some others say life is all about adventure. Other technical opinion says that life is the existence of the living things that separates from the dead things.

I face my own life like enjoying the rhythm of music. Music with the lyric or only instrumental music. Like living my life, some music is familiar to my ear, some other is so unfamiliar. But still, I listen to the beat. I dance if the rhythm is good for dancing. I sing if I know the song. I feel sad if it's melancholic. I cry if it touches my soul. I laugh if the lyric is funny or the rhythm is unpredictable. I am in awe if the notes sound so classic.

Life has an end; death. Music also has an end. And I definitely know that. But I don't know when that stops. So, when the music plays, I enjoy it by singing, or moving along with the music. Just like life. Just live my life. If life wants me to laugh outloud, why should I prevent myself from laughing? If life wants me to cry, why should I hold my tears? If life wants me to take what I deserve, why should I protest?

If you think that life is a journey, it means you have a destination. Every journey always has a destination. If it is a final destination, then your final destination is death. You will focus to live your life on the journey or on the death, that's your choice.

If you think life is an adventure, it means you have the guts to face the risks of living your life.  Does your adventure have an end? Surely it has. But you will focus on facing your adventurous, risky life.

So, do you want to consider your life as a journey, adventure, or rhythmic music? It's your choice. You don't have to follow my idea of living my life like I am enjoying the rhythm. But if you would, it feels good.


29/04/2020

Happy Fasting (a repost)

This is just a repost since it happens to be in Ramadan again:

I just had a conversation with some teenagers. They talked about their experience of fasting in this Ramadan month. It was a very light conversation because I was asking about the menus they had for iftar and suhoor. Some of them had difficulties in waking up for suhoor, so they didn't eat anything for suhoor. Then when it came to iftar, they were so hungry that they could eat a horse. So, on the way to go home from school, they would buy anything that they wanted to eat later at iftar. But when it really came to iftar, their hunger and thirst would be satisfied with only drinking a glass of sweet hot tea.

Then I remember myself when I was still a teenager doing fasting in Ramadan month. What happened to them happened to me too. I wished I could eat anything I wanted when it came to iftar, but my stomach couldn't take it. Anyway, I still tried to eat all I wanted because I wanted to feel full. When my mom woke me up for suhoor, I felt that my eyes and my whole body so heavy that I couldn't get up. As a result, I was just up for a while for a glass of water, and then went back to sleep again.

Growing old, I can feel the huge benefit of enjoying iftar moment by drinking a glass of hot tea and some dates (if I have the stock in the fridge). And those teenagers, who had a light conversation with me, are perfectly correct. At iftar, I can satisfy my hunger and thirst by sipping my hot tea slowly and doing it mindfully. After giving some long pauses, I will really enjoy my meal without feeling too full or too greedy to eat any other food.

Doing fasting in Ramadan month feels so much better when I don't have to worry about the limited stocks of food in my fridge, and when I don't have to join conversations about mouth watering food and drink😴

This 2020 fasting month feels much more special due to fact that covid19 is still around. Being at home more often and not having to talk with many people makes this fasting more meaningful. Let me just say that this 1441 Ramadan fasting is the most meaningful fasting for me as long as I live up to now.

Enjoy your Ramadan fasting.

18/04/2020

Towards the Mystery

You came into one of my dreams
You told me you had a secret kept
Then you came back again
to my other dream when I soundly slept
saying nothing but silence

I have no clue what I should do
I've never felt like this before
Is this the mystery
I should go through?
Or must I choose you
to strive for?

Are you coming to me
to awaken my soul?
Or are you coming to me
so I can make a mistake?
Being human is my role
Any risk I have to take

Let me be ready to enter
towards the mystery of my life


17/04/2020

Kindness Still Exists

This lovely Friday morning, I was going out by motorcycle to do some green grocery shopping. It was around 5 a.m. and the air was still very fresh and the traffic was apparently not busy. So after I finished my green grocery shopping, I decided to enjoy riding around to get more fresh air.

Suddenly at an intersection, my motorcycle was off. So I had to bring it near the sidewalk in order that I didn't disturb other vehicles passing by. I tried to ignite the machine automatically and manually again and again, but it wouldn't start.

So I tried to calm myself down, letting the motorcycle cool off. I saw some motorcyclists looking at me. I didn't ask their help because I was sure my motorcycle would be able to start if I let it rest first. I had experienced the same thing with the same motorcycle before. And at that time I managed to start the engine after some few minutes, without anyone's help.

Then, a motorcycle stopped beside me. There were two persons on that motorcycle. I assumed they were husband and wife, a young couple. The husband asked me what happened. Then both of them walked down from their motorcycle to help me start the engine. After they forced the manual and automatic ways of starting the engine, finally the motorcycle could start. I was so thankful for their effort to help me.

I still do believe that that little example of kindness still exists. Those husband and wife may think that what they have done to me is something small. But the effect to me is amazing. My heart is full with what they do with their kind heart.

14/04/2020

How I Make Use of Whatsapp

Whatsapp is the only social media platform that I use every day. The first time I had to decide to use it was because fewer and fewer people were using SMS. So, at that time, like it or not, I had to change because of the very fast-growing technology.

After managing to stop getting addicted to Facebook (that is by deleting my Facebook account because I felt mentally exhausted), I was quite relieved with the use of Whatsapp. I could still communicate with the persons who were really close to me personally. There was no facility in the old version of Whatsapp to update status. So I was happy with that.

Coming to the new version of that application with the facility of updating status, I was forced to curse "Why the heck does this application need to imitate other digital communication platforms like Facebook and Instagram?"

The many contacts I have saved result in the many status updates shown in 'Status' menu. At first, I was quite enjoying looking at other persons' status updates. It felt like I found a new version of Facebook. However, at that time I didn't feel intrigued to update my status simply because I didn't need any attention from people in my contact.

Then, checking people's status becomes boring for me. I don't broadcast my personal life on Whatsapp, so why should I know others' personal life? It has been more than 5 years I have been using this application. Within that duration, I've just done updating status for 4 times. And all those 4 times have made me feel awkward. I just felt uneasy after doing that. Thanks to the facility from Whatsapp that the status update can be deleted or will disappear within 24 hours.

I guess my feeling uneasy after updating status is all about defense mechanism. I don't want to feel stressed out thinking that other people who have seen my status will elaborate things concerning that update in relation with my personal life. Besides, I cannot control what other people think about after they see some status updates from some random persons including from me.  Furthermore, I don't want to get addicted to the number of views that I get after I update status. I consider that this kind of decision makes me mentally healthy.

Occasionally, however, I check status updates from persons that I care about. I give some feedbacks if necessary. I also check some which contain humor. If they know that I check their status, it's their problem, not mine 😉.

Perhaps, I will do something a little bit silly about how I make use of Whatsapp someday, as silly as changing my profile photo more than 5 times a day😁. It's not about needing attention; it's just about letting out my wild side for a while. And definitely not updating any status about my personal life. However, I'll be considering about sharing this blog via whatsapp. I'll think twice about that.




11/04/2020

How I Appreciate My Life

I remember reading a quote from Elbert Hubbard. He said "Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive." It's ironically funny because most of us live our life too seriously. We live our life as if we would live forever. So we sometimes fight too hard to get our success. We forget that we will die sooner or later.

There is nothing wrong with fighting. It will be wrong if the way we fight influences the way we face our life. We take everything too seriously. We don't try to find the humor in our life.

Let me then elaborate how I don't take my life too seriously. In that way, I can really appreciate that I still live.

First thing first, in the morning when I wake up, I will be excited to know that I can still wake up alive.

Then, when it comes to preparing things for my daily routines, I don't rush. I often steal a chance while having my cup of morning coffee to look up the sky to enjoy looking at flying birds.

When I am alone, I usually think about some things. Then I do some self talks. I have a dialog with myself. In the dialog, I often laugh at myself when I realize the content of the dialog.

Crazy, right? But that's the way I enjoy my life.

04/04/2020

Hippocrates' Help to Understand Diseases

Whether you like it or not, there comes at a time when you must stay home, laying in bed, getting ill. Or maybe you must stay home because you don't want to get infected with the dangerous viruses outside your home. Inside your home, feeling ill or feeling healthy, you will still feel safe.

How if you need something from outside? Let's say you need some food and drink supplies. You can ask somebody to help you. I am sure that you have somebody close, somebody that you know, whether they are your relatives, neighbors, or friends. I think they will be ready to help you if they know your condition. But if you are the type of person who is independent and who doesn't want to disturb others, going out to buy what you need from the neighborhood is still fine as long as you minimize physical contacts with others.

Then, how if you want to see a doctor? You need to consult with him. You need some medicine from him to cure your illness. You desperately want to get better. Surely, you will choose your favorite doctor to consult with. The problem is whether or not that doctor is purely intending to cure you. Or he is just being a doctor for the sake of business.

Frankly speaking, I don't trust doctors. It's not because I have trust issues. It's not also because I understand medical things. I don't understand at all. It's just because in order to be called doctors, they must spend a lot of money for the study to get that title. They will, of course, spend a lot of money to get the profession. Furthermore, when at last they are called as doctors, they must have spent a lot of money too, for the clinic that they own. And there it is, the clinic that they own to make a very good living.

There are some good doctors, however, who are really respecting their oath to help patients no matter what condition will happen to those doctors. As doctors, of course they know how to protect themselves from being infected with their patients' disease. They know the worst risk of being infected with very dangerous viruses from their patients: death.

Those good doctors, I bet, also really understand what Hippocrates meant in his saying: "It is more important to know what sort of person has a disease than to know what sort of disease a person has." To make it clearer, they probably will give their patient this question: "What sort of person are you to have this disease?" With a little bit of dialog with the patient, they can reveal what kind of person that patient is; the depressed, the all-food lover, the heavy drinker, the temperamental, the worrier, or so many other kinds. They are trying to understand the patient before they make a decision about what medication they will give the patient.

If ordinary people like me also understand this quote from Hippocrates, I guess we will know how to cure our own disease, or at least ease the pain of that disease. Therefore, when my stomach starts to act up painfully, I don't try to find the medicine to cure that ache. I just recall my memory about what I have eaten or drunk or thought about. That's it. So I know what kind of person I am to 'deserve' that disease. I am so careless in choosing what to eat or drink. Or I am so overwhelmedly busy thinking about some problems. So, to ease the pain of my stomach, I just try to relax, not letting the gastric acid come up. Then I will be just fine.






30/03/2020

Hikmah di Balik Ketidakpastian

Dunia sedang mengalami ketidakpastian karena wabah covid-19. Ketidakpastian tentang selamat atau tidaknya penderita covid-19. Ketidakpastian tentang kapan wabah ini akan berakhir. Banyaknya korban meninggal dari berbagai negara terus diberitakan. Ratusan bahkan ribuan nyawa.

Kengerian ini menghantui setiap orang yang kuatir tertular wabah ini. Berbagai cara dilakukan supaya wabah ini tidak menjangkiti warga. Dari cara yang masuk akal sampai cara yang membuat orang bertanya-tanya apakah cara itu efektif. Semua karena ketidakpastian.

Saya orang awam yang tidak memahami penjelasan medis tentang virus itu dan bagaimana membunuh virus itu. Saya juga menghindari mengonsumsi pemberitaan terkait covid-19. Bukannya saya tidak mau peduli dengan kondisi sekitar. Saya hanya ingin merasa tenang menghadapi krisis ini.

Dengan sedikit pengetahuan tentang virus itu dan cara menjaga kebersihan agar bisa terhindar dari virus itu, itu sudah cukup bagi saya. Saya pun juga akan tahu diri bagaimana saya menjaga jarak dengan orang lain. Bukannya saya takut tertular, tapi saya takut menulari orang itu karena saya juga tidak tahu apakah saya membawa virus itu atau tidak. Jadi saya memposisikan diri saya sebagai orang yang sangat sehat dan sekaligus orang yang beresiko membawa virus itu. Semua serba tidak pasti.

Semua ketidakpastian dari kejadian wabah ini tetap memunculkan beberapa hal yang pasti terjadi, yaitu meredanya wabah ini ataupun kematian. Kapankah terjadinya? Belum pasti, tapi pasti terjadi.

Saya berharap semua ini akan berakhir baik-baik saja.




18/03/2020

A Life Lesson from a Schoolkid

When I saw this picture for the first time, I directly fell in love. Then the owner of this picture, who happens to be the photographer and also a student that I know, gave me permission to use this picture for my blog. Plus, I don't have better photos at this moment. Big thanks to the photographer.

What a cute boy. I am not talking about the boy who is looking at the camera. That boy looking at the camera surely knows how to get attention. He realizes that somebody else, the photographer, is focusing on him. And there he is, giving his sweetest smile while looking at the camera.

Let me focus on the emphasis of that picture; the younger boy, who is not looking at the camera and doesn't even care if he is actually the center of attention.

Assuming that I don't know the background of that boy. Let me just look on the surface. His eyes are honest. He looks calm, very patient, though a little bit tired. But somehow, he manages to survive the standing. But one thing for sure, he doesn't like to get attention. He just likes to pay attention. He looks like an introvert type.

What if I tell you that actually his parents are in a different island, so far away from him? He is in another island to stay and study in an Islamic boarding school for some years ahead. I cannot imagine his emotions. I can only imagine what's underlying that picture; his face is telling me that he really misses being at home with his mom. But because he is now being away from her, he must accept that fact. And there he is, with his innocent face, wanting to survive from being separated from his mom, to get a better education with the hope that he will become a better man for his family and his religion.

 Be a good boy, and thanks for the soul-touching inspiration.




01/03/2020

Why I Listen a Lot

When I was still a kid, I used to stand in front of my house, at the front yard, looking up the sky, waiting for my favorite bird (I assume it belongs to the eagle family). When that bird already flew up the sky and shrieked its high pitched sound, I took my turn to imitate its shrieking sound, very loud. Then the bird shrieked again. Then my turn. Again and again until I stopped because my mom asked me to stop.

For me, it was fun doing it at that time. I also used to imitate the sounds of the birds in my house. My father was a bird lover, and he also taught me how to communicate with them. Because of my immature voice, it was easy for me to be in tune with the birds' high pitched sound.

Growing up, I feel very grateful with my need to listen. I listen to early morning birds. I listen to the drippings of water after the rain. I listen to the tickings of the clock. It feels like enjoying the music. I can even hear the music when I listen to the sound of a fan or an air conditioner.

That is why, perhaps, my ears are like magnets for some people around me who want to tell their stories, share their problems, or even talk about their secrets. They seem sure that I can be a good listener. I can't say to myself that I am a good listener. But when they start talking, I just focus on their words, really paying attention to every word they say.

So, the reason why I listen a lot is that I feel the need to tune in the here and the now. I need to be thankful for the present God has given to me; the present moment.

29/02/2020

Stop Denying Your Feeling

What do you do when you are feeling good? Maybe you smile, laugh, show your sparkling eyes, move energetically, and so on. It is very easy to do that because of that good feeling. How good you will feel when you are satisfied, optimistic, peaceful, euphoric, enthusiastic, confident, cheerful, affectionate, infatuated, amused, proud. How good you will have your day.

Then what do you do when you are not feeling good? What do you do when, for example, you feel sad, depressed, disappointed? Maybe you cry, lock yourself in your room, eat anything, drink anything. Or maybe you just pretend that you are not feeling that. The most obvious one when you are feeling down is that all of your energy has suddenly vanished. A different thing happens when you are feeling angry or annoyed. Your energy, your urge, suddenly levels up very quickly. Your urge to shout, hurt, torture is very high. Because of that sudden urge, maybe you do those things; shout at the person who makes you angry, hurt and torture those that make you angry. Your energy can be very destructive. Or you just pretend that you are not angry or annoyed.

If you are willingly accepting your positive feelings, why not also accepting your negative feelings? Why do you have to pretend? Why do you have to deny those feelings which are considered negative? If you pretend that you don't feel those, you are suppressing them. The more frequently you suppress, the bigger explosion you will have from inside of you.

If you have no problem of expressing your positive feelings, why should you have a problem of expressing your negative feelings? Are you ashamed of being called too sentimental because you cry? A singer, Dionne Warwick, says that crying is cleansing, there's a reason for tears, happiness or sadness.

You are not showing that you are weak when you cry. You are showing that you have a soft heart. You are not showing that you are cruel when you get angry. You are just showing that you are human. Acknowledge your anger but don't hurt others when you are angry.  Use your high energy when you get angry to do things beneficial to you, like doing sport or gardening. There are no wrong feelings.




15/02/2020

Appearances can be deceiving


What do you have in your mind when you look at that picture? Do you think that the cat is going to eat the chickens because of the way he looks at them? Or do you think that those chickens will wake up and run away because they feel threatened?

You know what happens in nature that small birds are preys for cats. And if you've never owned any cat in your life, you will probably think that cat is going to eat those chickens.

But in fact, after that picture was taken, my cat was just smelling those chickens' heads while touching and tapping their fur gently. After he did that, he just walked away. The way he looked at them seemed cruel, but actually he didn't do anything cruel to them.

However, most of the time we have the tendency to judge anything or anyone from their appearance. If, for example, we see a tall guy with his fair complexion and cool haircut, we tend to think that he must be very confident having that look.

When on one ocassion you get a chance to talk to him heart to heart, he reveals his dark past of having traumas. Those traumas have been haunting him, making him difficult to socialize. Then do you feel deceived by his appearance? Don't blame him for having that confident look. It's your fault that you just look at him superficially.

It's also your fault to assume a middle-aged man walking alone on the street as a beggar or a homeless man just because he wears dirty clothes. How if he is actually a generous person, looking for stray cats or dogs and giving them food? How if he is just walking back home to his family after a day's hard work?

You can have your own assumption or judgement when looking at a person or a thing. But remember, appearances can be deceiving. If they look like what you don't expect (for instance: cruel, dirty, poor, lazy, stupid, ugly, etc.), don't just look with your eyes; try to also look with your heart. Rushing to judgement will only create your overreaction to that person or thing.


25/01/2020

A clear conscience (Inspired from Patrick Jane's quote)

In season 7 episode 8 (the whites of his eyes), Patrick Jane said "I hate to talk to you about doing the right thing. Doing it is the easy part. Knowing what it is is tough."

There is nothing difficult when you want to decide whether to do one thing or the other thing as long as those two things don't have any seriously bad effects on anyone else. Let's say you need to give your report to your boss tomorrow. You also need to come for an appointment tomorrow, too. You will know what to do then; make the priority of course. Or if it has to happen at the same time, you can just cancel one of them. You certainly know which one must be cancelled.

It will be very difficult to know the right thing to do if your ego messes up your conscience. And this involves somebody else's life. If you do option A, somebody or you yourself might get hurt. If you do option B, somebody else can be killed but you are safe.

An example of a case is from the series itself. A young mother has to testify against a cruel killer. This cruel killer has already hired a sniper to kill the other witness. That young mother is the last witness to testify. If she testifies at court, that killer is no doubt sentenced to jail for a very long time. But if she goes to court, there is a big possibility that she will be shot by the sniper that the killer has hired.

If she doesn't testify, her baby still has a mother. And the baby's father doesn't have to get depressed of raising a child alone. But the killer will be free.

That young mother is in a difficult situation. But if she has a clear conscience, she will know what the right thing she must do, regardless of the consequences.

I don't have to tell you what she finally chooses to do based on what her clear conscience tells her to. Of course we know the right thing to do in that situation because we are not in her position. It's very easy for us to say to her this: "Please do the right thing."

So, if we are in that young mother's position, same case or different, let's hope that our clear conscience will let us know the right thing to do.