2020-2021

I have no idea about the way I think of 2020 and 2021, but I feel as if those two years didn't happen. I guess the pandemics played a big role why that happened to me. I don't recall many important things I have done in those two years, except the fact that I had to prepare so many complicated things concerning online teaching.

When I talk to some friends of mine about the 2020 and 2021 that didn't really happen, some agree with me. They think that those two years feel like dreams. This is perhaps because we were at home too often when pandemics hit. We didn't remember doing important things in those years.

I read some random articles about conspiracy theories that the years of covid pandemics were just simulation🤣. Well, maybe those conspiracy theorists were right after all because we human beings were experimented by the "higher power" to suffer from covid to know whether we were strong or not. Those who were not strong were eliminated by death, and those who were strong were told to be vaccinated.

And that's when the big pharmas win. So, let me just think that the big industries of pharmacies were responsible for making those two years feel like nothing. They were probably wanting those two years as simulation. And now they can predict the human behaviour when  facing pandemics. 

The human behaviour is predicted to be easily controlled when they are in fear. They also have the tendency to be very obedient when they are faced with government rules. They wear a mask not because they want to be free from covid; but because they want to avoid the sanction. 

They agree to be vaccinated THREE times not because they don't want to be infected by covid; but because they need to get access to public facilities: malls, train stations, government bureaucracies. They need vaccines because they want to apply for a job. They need vaccines because they want to be able to meet their big families for Eid al Fitr.

What a nice collaboration of big pharmas and every government in this world: to keep human beings healthy and to make them more obedient to the government.

Mengapa Kepalsuan Semakin Parah

Pernahkah terlintas di benak kita tentang orisinalitas gaya hidup kita? Sadarkah bahwa apapun yang terjadi di kehidupan kita, ada peran pihak lain yang 'mencetak' diri kita? Tidak bisa dipungkiri memang jika kita tidak bisa menjalani kehidupan tanpa campur tangan pihak lain. Campur tangan orang lain yang bersifat membangun, serta campur tangan yang bersifat mengintimidasi.

Àda yang bilang bahwa kita butuh role model untuk menjadi lebih baik. Ada juga yang bilang bahwa kita perlu selalu menunjukkan sisi terbaik kita. 

Namun jika saya membandingkan dengan prinsip hidup: 'ketika tangan kanan berbuat baik, jangan biarkan tangan kiri mengetahuinya', prinsip itu sama logisnya juga dengan: 'ketika tangan kiri berbuat jelek, jangan biarkan tangan kanan mengetahuinya'.

Perbandingan yang saya deskripsikan memang konyol. Akan tetapi, saya dianugerahi otak yang bisa saya manfaatkan untuk berpikir. Saya pun bebas berpikir dengan konyol.😅

Dengan adanya tuntutan dari kehidupan modern yang memaksa kita untuk berlaku sempurna di mata orang lain, seakan-akan kita dipaksa untuk selalu menggunakan tangan kanan kita. Kita dipaksa untuk terlihat prima, baik, cantik, tampan, berhati malaikat, tidak pernah melakukan kesalahan di mata orang lain. 

Betapa malangnya nasib tangan kiri. Betapa malangnya 'potensi' kita untuk menjadi lebih 'mengerikan' andaikan kita menggunakan tangan kiri kita. Potensi itu kita pendam dengan paksaan karena ketakutan kita akan tercemarnya harga diri kita jika potensi itu mendadak muncul. Akan sangat memalukan di mata orang lain.

Apapun yang kita tunjukkan di mata orang lain, betapa menderitanya kita jika kita terus-terusan menghilangkan peran 'tangan kiri', padahal tangan kiri itu adalah bagian dari kita juga. Lambat laun tangan kiri tidak akan bisa difungsikan. Akibatnya kita tidak bisa menjadi seutuhnya kita.

Sekarang abaikan perumpamaan saya yang menggunakan tangan kanan dan kiri. Mari kita pahami keberadaan kita di dunia sosial. Gebyar yang kita tunjukkan di kehidupan sosial, entah itu di kehidupan nyata ataupun maya, semua adalah sisi hebat, sisi berkelas, sisi wow dari diri kita. Sisi gebyar yang seakan kita lupa bahwa kita masih punya sisi yang lain. Sisi gebyar yang justru memperlihatkan betapa palsunya kita.

Semakin kita mengikuti arus yang terjadi di kehidupan sosial, semakin sempurna pula kepalsuan kita. Semakin kita menuruti hawa nafsu untuk memuaskan keinginan publik, semakin jauh kita dari otentisitas kita. 

Mari berdamai dengan diri kita yang memiliki sisi lain. Mari kita terima keberadaan sisi lain itu agar kita bisa dengan mudah mengolah sisi lain itu.

Living for Life

Deep down, I often feel that this year 2021 moves very fast. There have been so many unexpected things happening in this year. 

Those unexpected things really influenced the way I look at situations and people. Some people don't realize that they show their true colours when they behave in a certain way, or when they talk about some trivial stuff.

When a certain situation forces people to do what they hate doing, maturity has begun its process to them. Like it or not, they have to face and do the process. And when out loud shouts and curses come out of their mouth, that is very humane.

Anyway, as human beings, we have a responsibility to live this life. I suppose there is not an obligation to live this life like angels. Angels don't have bodies; in other words, they don't live physically. And that means angels won't be able to make mistakes because there's no brain and body that can "facilitate" them to make mistakes.

We, humans, on the other hand, have a brain and a body that can "help" us to do stupid things, to think rationally when making decision with the consequences of hurting others' feeling, and to create chaos.

Whatever weaknesses that we have, we must live this life to the fullest. Let's never stop being humble and kind, let's ignore those who are toxic, let's learn from our mistakes when we make them.

2021 will end very soon. 2022 will feel very fast, pandemics or not, if we live our life to the fullest, facing whatever comes to us with our brave heart.